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For Him<33

So you want to know how it feels to be me?
To be brave enough to fall and then be strong enough to get back up. To seek true love and everyday for someone to tell me I’m wasting my time. To believe in the good of people and for them to be bad in return.

I am afraid of falling again, falling for you. Then having to pick myself up after you leave, having to pretend that your presence had no impact on my life, having to miss you.

This I write to him, you know who you are, because honestly I do care, I care a whole damn lot, a lot more than I want to, & a lot more than normal, & at times it seems a lot more than you.

My fambam are completely irreplaceable.

       

Marilyn Truong, Jessica Wood, Molly O’Shea, Linzey Noble, Emily Peach, Malcolm Khuu, Erin Manz, Scott Thomas, Eddie Hill
&& MADDISON MCCOY.

I’m sorry Maddison McCoy I have no recent photos of us on my laptop but I promise next time we chill we are taking photos and I’m going to make a whole post about you. I love you. &Your face.

Do you care about my happiness?

Okaay,

Recently I have been really down and depressed.

But now my whole world is looking up thanks to Josica Agarwal.

Thankyou. 

 

P.s. I was going to tell you all about my problems but I have told enough people. Thankyou people who have listened.
I very much appreciate it.

(: MMBDST

He will never understand.

He will never understand how I feel at night when the only touch I want to feel is his own.

He will never understand that losing him, the best thing that’s ever been mine, has completely broken me.

He will never understand how my heart aches day by day just waiting for the love that once filled it to return.

He will never understand the hurt my hands feel to have to be held by others, and no longer the ones they desire.

He will never understand the emptiness of my eyes to go without the sight of someone special, someone like him for so long.

He will never understand how our love impacted me, it was magical, irreplaceable and completely life changing.

He will never understand the way I love him.

♥

do I mean anything to you anymore?

Okaay, this is going to be a proper post instead of small amount of words I write down when I am lying in bed thinking of times in my past where I should of done something, could of done something or didn’t do somethingg.

Today I went to RBH for work experience in the Emergency Imaging Ward. It was pretty boring all I did was sit there mostly besides when I went on tea and lunch with Vika. Oh and I went to ICU for a mobile xray, OKAYYY I THINK TALKING LIKE THIS IS GAY; WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT MY DAY? Sabinaaa is cool ! XD

What the fuck has happened to you? You used to be my bestfriend! and now it’s like I don’t even matter. I have been excluded from your new life and resort to reading your blog everyday just to feel included again; Just hoping one day you might say something about how much you miss me, or that I matter to you. But for every day I wait I lose hope in us, I lose hope in you. When I do read your blog I acknowledge all your special abbreviations for your ‘close’ friends, ones that matter to you; like I DID. <<Past tenseee:)) I dont know what to do, I want to keep loving you but am finding it harder than every. Maybe forever was unrealistic. I’m sorry.

 

sabinaFUCKENcolman

May the magic of our love last forever.

I love you, but when will you realise you love me too?

 

Hope is for losers. It’s a con job people trip behind till they finally get a grip on the cold hard truth.

In search of guidance.

Some people believe in god; I believe in music.
Some people pray; I turn up the radio.

That’s just how it is.

I’m travelling the road; road to greatness.

These past few days I have been conflicted, conflicted between loving you and continuing to be unhappy or just letting you go and still being unhappy. The thing is you’re my happiness. You are the sun in my sky that gets me out of bed every morning and You’re the stars in my sky to guide me through the dark. I need you in my life, not just for now but forever.